The pregnancy after the miscarriage
By Kristen Bourgeois
After losing my daughter to miscarriage and the subsequent 1 ½-year spent struggling with infertility, my husband and I learned we are expecting.
I was in shock and disbelief even though this has been part of my daily prayer and something we were hoping for.
When the nurse called to confirm my pregnancy, I cried. Not tears of happiness, but tears of fear. Fear had swept in. Fear of potential loss. Fear of suffering.
As Christians, we are supposed to look forward to life here on earth and ultimately heaven with hope and joy. I recognized my fear of loss was preventing me from loving in the present. Fear was robbing me of my hope and joy in this pregnancy.
I have to decide every day, sometimes several times in a day, to choose hope and joy over fear.
I’m choosing to live in the moment and have decided not to let fear of loss or suffering keep me from loving this baby that grows inside of me in the present moment.
Choosing joy and hope is tough! How do you choose joy and hope over fear?