I Did Not Want to Write This

By Charla Spalluto Misse

Some people long to have a voice … I don’t.

Some people are comfortable being judged … I’m not.

So why did I want to write a blog? … I didn’t!

When I was asked to contribute to the Clarion, before I could decline, I felt a sharp tug emphasizing that I was being ASKED to contribute … asked.

I often pray that, when I am asked, I will have the strength to give my fiat as Mary did. I needed some time to pray on it.

Over the next few days, I had many doubts, always concluding, however, that the Holy Spirit was asking this of me. The night before our first planning meeting, my mind was racing. I couldn’t sleep. I was truly terrified by the possibility of writing, of exposing myself to you.

Finally, I meditated on Christ’s ultimate sacrifice, His suffering so that I might live … Then, it became clear, and my heart calmed: if only ONE soul were strengthened by my words, it would be worth any hardship I might face. Indeed, I am blessed to have this opportunity.

So why do I want to write a blog? For Him … and for you.

Whenever I write, I promise to pray that I will choose the right words at the right time.